Charlotte is ONE! The last time I saw her, she was a tiny newborn. I was over-the-moon thrilled when her parents invited me back to their home to take some lifestyle shots for her 1st birthday. I know for sure this little lady is loved and well cared for.

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I became a mom in 2014 when I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl: Finn. Before being a mom I was simply a photographer. It is how I identified myself. I had built a decent business, and felt I had found my calling in life. I tried to be a full-time stay at home mom and full-time work from home mom, only to quickly realize something had to give. I was short fused, extremely tired and my family was suffering. To add to the situation, we found out we were expecting baby #2 when Finn was only 4 months old. They would be 13 months apart. That’s when anxiety set in. We kept the news a secret for so long because we were ashamed in some ways (silly now that we think about it). The reality set in that I could either A) take care of two babies and give up my business, or B) put them in a daycare of some kind and continue working full-time. I struggled with the mere thought of having to give up a piece of myself that I had cultivated into a career. But, I also couldn’t stand the idea of leaving my babies with anyone. So, I would shrug off the question about if I’d still work after having baby #2 and quickly change the subject. I don’t know why I couldn’t just tell people I was putting photographing clients on hold for a while to focus on being a mom. Maybe because inside I felt like I was quitting or loosing in some way. Or, maybe I just truly didn’t know what the future held. Fast-forward to the birth of Bear. Shortly after we got home and settled I began to realize that I had little to no extra time for anything. Not even a shower. As time passed, I began to feel alone and a bit depressed with the overwhelming duties of caring for two young babies. I had no creative outlet, and  I hadn’t picked up my camera in a long while. I discussed my feelings with my husband, and can I just say he is a saint… seriously. He reminded me that I could still make photographs, just a little differently than before. I could actually shoot what was in front of me; That was Finn & Bear. I quickly jumped on the idea and started to get excited again. The act of making, for me, is an extraordinary gift that brings so much joy to my life. I enrolled in a online photography course and started an Instagram account called Finn & Bear. I wanted to capture my views of motherhood. These photos would be unique because they were/are my story and no-one else’s. Finn is 2.5 and Bear is 1.5 and I have taken photos of them almost daily going on two years.  I have learned so much and grown even more as an artist. I get in ruts still. I think I am actually in one now, but they inspire me to keep pursuing and keep growing. I am so much more than just a photographer. I am a intricate being with a unique perspective on life that maybe you’d enjoying seeing. You can follow me on Instagram @finnandbear

I have recently started taking on a few client sessions. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do not fear that either.

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Here is a set of images that I have titled ‘Views of Motherhood.’pinthis

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I have always noticed a strong theme in my work: my subjects facing away.

 

Tanner and Tyler graduated from Irion County High School on Friday. They have grown into such wonderful young men. I remember when they were born and later babysitting them with my sister. Gaw, time flies! I am proud to know you guys. Can’t wait to see what your future holds!

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I went to high school with this sweet mamma. We even had our second babies on the same day, in the same hospital. I have really enjoyed watching her experience this wonderful journey of motherhood. Her boys are a reflection of her hard work and loving spirit. It was an honor to get to capture her in her element along side her husband. I hope this little family can look back on these images and remember some of life’s fleeting moments.

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